It has been awhile

It has been awhile since my last post, and i want to reassure you I am alive. The reason being, recently, I have been reflecting over my thoughts and experiences over the last couple weeks. My last two posts reveal a side of me that is full of life and overtly optimistic of my experiences. But the thing is, I have not been feeling that certain optimism lately and have been struggling to stay positive. I'd find myself thinking to write an entry but found no motivation to do so.Yes the last few lines have been about me and it seems rather selfish too go on about myself. So here are my reflections over the past couple weeks.
Lately I have been traveling solo to the beach mainly because my best friend is unable to surf indefinately, and my dad never surfs with me anymore. The past couple weeks have been tough but many things can be learned because of it. The certain search for happiness in each day has been pursued and mostly not achieved.Through the result of traveling solo many things can be learned about yourself and your eyes are fully open to many new ideas and visions. Many times you will find yourself in a group of people or just you and someone else and be so involved in conversation that many things go by unnoticed. You forget that first step outside into the ocean air and feel the renewing scent flow through your nostrils and you can practically taste the ocean. Or the ocean breezes calm lullaby whispering in your ear to come play with her. Or the wind that blows through your hair when driving down the line and suddenly everything is new and that natural anthem the ocean plays brings you back to the underlying meaning of life and surfings impact upon it as a whole.Sometime you may close your eyes and forget to hear the nature that surrounds you. The steady harmonic chirping of nearby beards, the sound of the crashing waves, sand blowing across the beach with the steady offshore flow. These moments mustn't not be forgotten. For these are the moments that bring meaning to our lives. So I challenge you to break from your usually routine and take some time to experience the nature of life alone. What you'll learn from yourself through these experiences alone will show you how deeply intoxicating nature itself can be.